Emotions

I don't think anything can prepare you for the emotional insanity that you feel these last few weeks of pregnancy. The anticipation, excitement, nerves, and fear are extremely overwhelming. I've been finding myself having a hard time coping with it all at times. Jony's been great at just letting me cry or vent to him, and he's figured out that it's easier on me when he explains his true feelings instead of pretending to be strong for me. He's still my rock, but it makes me feel a lot less crazy to know that I'm not the only feeling these things. I just want him to come so badly. It's so hard to have this one thing that you've wanted for SO long to just be dangling in front of you, but you have no idea when you're going to get it. I mean- a measly 6.5cm is all that is standing between me and my son. When you think about it in general terms, that's nothing! However, you have that whole labor aspect that gets rid of that separation which adds a whole new twist to the anticipation. Since I'm hoping to go natural, there's a whole list of other "fears" (for lack of a better word at the moment) that go along with just waiting for it to all start. Then, of course, you have the normal worries that come with being a brand new parent.

In summary, these last few weeks are composed of being so uncomfortable (and sick feeling, might I add) that you just want it out, anticipation and nerves regarding labor and delivery, wanting your baby so bad that it's hard to control, and nerves regarding actually having that baby. Phew.