Back and Forth

After learning that you can change the settings on Fertility Friend to different ways of determining if you O or not (advanced, using CM, and FAM), I've been going crazy back and forth every day with my new temperatures and CM updates. Since they both agree on CD 21, I guess it must be so! It's one day later than last month, but that's pretty normal from what I've seen on the boards. I'm pretty excited that I've been ovulating since that's what my sister's problem was (dealing with her thyroid). I just keep thinking that I'm ready for AF to come on along (of course, after a decent luteal phase length). I only have one more cycle of TTA before we try for baby H!! I'm so excited! Since we're fairly certain that we might make an offer on a house in the next few weeks, I've been daydreaming about decorating a little nursery and setting up home for our baby. I guess my nesting instinct has set in early.

I've also experienced my first round of "TTC" (since i'm not yet) jealousy. I found out that one of my friends that I'm not really close to is 5 months pregnant. I'm happy for her, but she just seperated from her husband, so that sucks. She works at a fast food joint, so there is no way that she'll be able to support this child on her own if they can't work through their problems. Of course, I wished that it was me pregnant instead, but mostly I thought of the girls on the message boards that are having such a hard time. Though I don't know them, I think that they should have gotten their chance instead of her. Hopefully it all works out for her, though, and they can be a happy family.

Stats:

-CD 30: 9 DPO

-51 days until we're TTC!

Starting anew

Now that I don't have too much to worry about regarding my cervix, I feel like any other woman feels right before she starts TTC (I'd imagine): baby obsessed. We're searching for houses (side note: we may have found one!), and I keep thinking which room would be the best for a nursery, how great the living room would be for the baby to play in, if the backyard is big enough for a swing AND our dog, etc. At least I'm planning for the future, right? 

Today, J and I went to the zoo with another married couple of ours. If you've been to a zoo before, then you may realize how many people with children/babies go. Not the smartest decision for two (yes, she's in a similar situation as me) baby obsessed women. They were all such cute children, too! The husbands had a great time in the children's area playing with all of the stuff they have out, while we talked about the excitement of having kids soon to play with them! It was a good day- lots of fun! 

Sexually, we have a bit to make up for to get ready for TTC. Since I was told to wait a few weeks after the colposcopy/biopsy to have sex again in order to let my cervix heal, we've been abstaining. It still scares me that my cervix may not be fully healed. It's completely a mind thing. I'm hoping to turn that back around tonight? 

Oh, and I used the temperature adjuster for my temps this cycle since my waking times have been all sorts of screwed up, and it gave me crosshairs! I took my temperature at my normal time today, and it fit right in with what the adjusting temps were (about), so that's pretty awesome! I'm taking it with a grain of salt, though, since they're not my "real" temps. 

Stats:

-CD 28: 7 DPO

-53 days until we're TTC!

I'm inflammed

in the cervix, at least. My follow-up appointment was today and all is well. I don't even have to take any antiobiotics like I was thinking that I might. My cervix healed really well- my doctor was impressed. I'm excited to have it all over with!! I'll be going in every 6 months to have a pap smear for awhile, but after a few normal results then I'll go back to every year like a normal, non-inflammed woman. I guess it works out alright, though, because that corresponds exactly with when he wanted me to come back to discuss our next step if we're not pregnant yet (we're on the 6 month plan due to all the fertility issues with the women in our family). So, now it's on to waiting until we're officially TTC and then until May for my next pap!

Stats:

-CD 25: No O. Blasted colposcopy stressed me out so much that I think it delayed it. Hopefully- I want to O, please! 

-56 days until we're TTC!