We got it!!!

We got a call from our realtor saying that our offer was accepted on the house! We got everything we asked for, except they wanted an earlier closing date (which is what the plan was...we offered a 60 day closing figuring they would want to counter that, but keep everything else). We're so excited!!! Now, we're really ready to try for a baby to take to our new home! Our closing is Dec. 24th, so Merry Christmas to us! I can't believe it!

We're still waiting to hear what's going on with J's dad, and we're still waiting for AF to arrive. I'm beginning to get crampy, though, so she'll be heading over in a day or two, for sure! 

Stats:

-CD 49: 10 DPO

- between 1 and 5 days before we're TTC!!!

The Waiting Game

Thanksgiving was great! We had a really good time with J's family, as usual. J's dad ended up in the ER late last night for some chest pains, so that's not so good. It wasn't a heart attack, but this is the 2nd time this has occured in the last few months, so he's under observation at the hospital. He's not happy there. He hates being told he has to lose weight (he does), and that's what's being said repeatedly to him while he's there. J and I are hoping that us getting pregnant will really encourage him to start exercising and get to a healthy weight. We're just not sure that he could play with a little baby like he is right now. He definitly wouldn't be able to move/react quick enough if something happened to the baby. J already has plans to have a serious discussion about this around the beginning of the 2nd trimester, whenever that happens. We wait.

On a good and EXCITING note, we put an offer on a house today!! I get so nervous everytime my phone rings. I'm ready for this part to be over with! Today, it's especially more exciting because our apartment is having the roof worked on, and the workers are being really rough and making all sorts of noise above us. Darn Ike. So, we wait.

I'm over this cycle. I want a long LP, of course, but I'm just ready to start again. I'm feeling a little blech in the uterus/stomach area today, but that could be AF getting ready to come out and play or a thanksgiving gift from all the eating yesterday. Again, we just wait.

Stats:

-CD 48: 9 DPO

- between 2 and 10 days until we're TTC!

Happy Thanksgiving!

The holiday season has officially begun! YAY! I love all things holiday (specifically Christmas/New Years). I'm planning on fully enjoying every ounce of the holiday season in hopes that I won't concentrate too hard on TTC. I'll have plenty of time for that afterwards! We'll be heading over to J's uncle's house to enjoy time with his entire extended family (on his mom's side), hopefully, for the last time by ourselves!

Have a great day!

Turkey Day Stats:

-CD 47: 8 DPO

-between 2 and 10 days until we're TTC!

End of the Week

I REALLY hope that the rest of this week goes by quickly. Yesterday and today have dragged on, and it's aggravating me. I really just want AF to start this weekend, so we can be on our first cycle already! Granted, It'll probably be a long time before I O again, but at least we'll by trying! I've gotten really jealous of all the girls who O so early (less than CD 20). At least then, you don't have to wait quite as long if the cycle doesn't work. I'm afraid cycles like this one (2 months!) are going to get REAL old when we're trying. Can I please have my 31 day cycle again? Oh well. At least I'm ovulating! That makes me think that I don't have the same thyroid issues that my mother and sister had (they didn't ovulate), so yay! Maybe I'll be that lucky fertile one? Ha. I dream.

Stats:

-CD 45: 6 DPO

- about 4-10 days until we're TTC! How exciting!

An invitation

I cordially invite Ms. AF to come visit me for a few days starting sometime around next weekend. It seems that I finally O'd on around CD 39!! The most exciting aspect of that is that we'll officially be trying for baby H next cycle! YAY! We decided that one month really isn't that big of a deal in the long run, and we're just going to go for it now. Hopefully, I won't have as ridiculously long of a cycle as I am right not, but I probably will. Our plan is to keep it simple. I'll keep charting as I have been (though I'm upping my temp time to help with the mass amounts of open circles on my chart), but I'll keep all that info to myself. J doesn't want to know to keep him from getting stressed out or feeling used. I'll tell him after I test, no matter the results. I wish we'd decided this a week ago, so we could have utilized this O, but oh well! I'm looking forward to the obsession/excitement that goes along with actually TTC! 

Stats:

-CD 43: 4 DPO

-about a week until we're TTC!

So Ugly

My chart is horrific this month. I feel more confident that it reflects my body, though. I've constantly been evaluated and tested for having "abnormal" periods, which, after learning so much about cycles, is most likely attributed to just having a long cycle. Though my chart is ugly, it's still frustrating to think about all the trouble I've been put through and the hurt I've felt when I've been made to think I wouldn't ever be able to have kids. I know- so wrong. I'm taking a new approach to baby-making: I can do it. At least, I'm going to try real hard. Who knows- maybe I just O'd!?! I had a temp rise (maybe? i've been relying on adjusted temps WAY too much this cycle...I was going to move up my wake time when the cycle ended- AF?) and I've been having mounds of EWCM. As always, we shall see.

In other news, we may be putting an offer on a house! We've crunched the numbers, and we can do it for sure (apartment stuff factors in). Now, we just have to make a final decision! EEK!

Stats:

-CD 39: "20 DPO"

-42 days until we're TTC!

How much for this?

J and I worked at a garage sale hosted by his parents this weekend. Not too terribly exciting. It was so cold! (note: I have grown up in Houston and am, by many people's standards, weak when it comes to cold weather. It was in the 50s! ugh) We sold most of the stuff that we put into it, including a stereo and a desk, so we made pretty decent profit. We're planning on using that for christmas shopping, so that doesn't cut into our getting ready for house/baby savings. We only have my niece and my brother and his sister to get stuff for, so we'll have some leftover even! Of course, everything points to baby for me. His aunt had tons of her grandkids old stuff to sell. The best was this adorable little kid's size table. I just stared at it, envisioning how well it would look it the nursery that I have designed in my head. It sold. How sad. I did tell J that vision for the first time, though, and I showed him the bedding that I found/liked. He approved. Now, I want to buy it. First, we need to start trying. I am thinking that may be moved up... we went out to dinner with my sister, brother in law, and freakin' adorable nice tonight and J was a complete hog with her. I could see it in his eyes that he's ready for one he can take home with him. He was so devastated when we were leaving- barely even let me hug the poor girl good-bye before he snatched her and snuggled while carrying her to the car. He'll never admit it, but J's got the baby bug bad now!

Stats:

-CD 36. FF says that i'm 17 DPO, but I know that's wrong. I think I may be ovulating around now, actually, based on the mass amounts of EWCM I've had. 

-45 days until we're TTC....or could it be less? hmm...

Nutcracker Market

Today, I went shopping at the Ntcracker Market (a huge shopping experience at the Reliant Arena) with my mom. It was strange to have so much Christmas-y stuff going on around me, but I can't complain too much. Christmas is by far my favorite holiday. It was kind of tough, though, in regards to wanting a child. Almost every other booth had children's clothes, decorations, etc. that was SO cute! I was able to look at it some using my niece as an excuse, but I didn't get to get anything or even look too closely at it since my mom doesn't know that children are on our horizon. There was a TON of pregnant women there, too. I even saw one drinking a beer. Personal choice, I know, but it seems wierd to do in front of thousands of people. 

I'm a bit confused by my cycle this month. If last cycle was any indication, I was supposed to start spotting yesterday and start AF today. Nothing. I had EWCM yesterday, so maybe I'm just now ovulating? Or, I have a longer luteal phase. Only time will tell, I guess.

Stats:

-CD 33: 12 DPO (perhaps)

-48 days until we're TTC (under 50! yay!)

another BFP

I was on my daily computer schedul: FF (inputting my temp, stalking, etc.), e-mail, and then on to Facebook when I saw an intriguing status: Friend is pregnant!! I proceeded to be the good friend and wrote "Congratulations!" on her wall and asked when she is due only to have a reply returned to say that she just took the test last night. Eek! I was shocked. There is no way that I would post that so soon! I actually doubt I'll have anything on there until I'm pretty far along (at least 3 months) into my pregnancy. I've got to give myself and J the chance to let everyone important to us know in person first! She actually had someone comment on her status saying "thanks for letting me find this out on facebook." I know I have good friends who would be so disspointed if that's how they found out about me! 

On the charting front, I had a temperature drop today. If last cycle taught me anything, I'll probably be seeing some spotting tomorrow and welcoming AF on thursday. We shall see!

Stats:

-CD 31: 10 DPO and a substantial temp. drop

-50 days until we're TTC! 

Back and Forth

After learning that you can change the settings on Fertility Friend to different ways of determining if you O or not (advanced, using CM, and FAM), I've been going crazy back and forth every day with my new temperatures and CM updates. Since they both agree on CD 21, I guess it must be so! It's one day later than last month, but that's pretty normal from what I've seen on the boards. I'm pretty excited that I've been ovulating since that's what my sister's problem was (dealing with her thyroid). I just keep thinking that I'm ready for AF to come on along (of course, after a decent luteal phase length). I only have one more cycle of TTA before we try for baby H!! I'm so excited! Since we're fairly certain that we might make an offer on a house in the next few weeks, I've been daydreaming about decorating a little nursery and setting up home for our baby. I guess my nesting instinct has set in early.

I've also experienced my first round of "TTC" (since i'm not yet) jealousy. I found out that one of my friends that I'm not really close to is 5 months pregnant. I'm happy for her, but she just seperated from her husband, so that sucks. She works at a fast food joint, so there is no way that she'll be able to support this child on her own if they can't work through their problems. Of course, I wished that it was me pregnant instead, but mostly I thought of the girls on the message boards that are having such a hard time. Though I don't know them, I think that they should have gotten their chance instead of her. Hopefully it all works out for her, though, and they can be a happy family.

Stats:

-CD 30: 9 DPO

-51 days until we're TTC!

Starting anew

Now that I don't have too much to worry about regarding my cervix, I feel like any other woman feels right before she starts TTC (I'd imagine): baby obsessed. We're searching for houses (side note: we may have found one!), and I keep thinking which room would be the best for a nursery, how great the living room would be for the baby to play in, if the backyard is big enough for a swing AND our dog, etc. At least I'm planning for the future, right? 

Today, J and I went to the zoo with another married couple of ours. If you've been to a zoo before, then you may realize how many people with children/babies go. Not the smartest decision for two (yes, she's in a similar situation as me) baby obsessed women. They were all such cute children, too! The husbands had a great time in the children's area playing with all of the stuff they have out, while we talked about the excitement of having kids soon to play with them! It was a good day- lots of fun! 

Sexually, we have a bit to make up for to get ready for TTC. Since I was told to wait a few weeks after the colposcopy/biopsy to have sex again in order to let my cervix heal, we've been abstaining. It still scares me that my cervix may not be fully healed. It's completely a mind thing. I'm hoping to turn that back around tonight? 

Oh, and I used the temperature adjuster for my temps this cycle since my waking times have been all sorts of screwed up, and it gave me crosshairs! I took my temperature at my normal time today, and it fit right in with what the adjusting temps were (about), so that's pretty awesome! I'm taking it with a grain of salt, though, since they're not my "real" temps. 

Stats:

-CD 28: 7 DPO

-53 days until we're TTC!

I'm inflammed

in the cervix, at least. My follow-up appointment was today and all is well. I don't even have to take any antiobiotics like I was thinking that I might. My cervix healed really well- my doctor was impressed. I'm excited to have it all over with!! I'll be going in every 6 months to have a pap smear for awhile, but after a few normal results then I'll go back to every year like a normal, non-inflammed woman. I guess it works out alright, though, because that corresponds exactly with when he wanted me to come back to discuss our next step if we're not pregnant yet (we're on the 6 month plan due to all the fertility issues with the women in our family). So, now it's on to waiting until we're officially TTC and then until May for my next pap!

Stats:

-CD 25: No O. Blasted colposcopy stressed me out so much that I think it delayed it. Hopefully- I want to O, please! 

-56 days until we're TTC!